NTU Bioengineering grad
First cry.. 26 Sept 1986
"retired" Biz Manager of RSP Elders
Volunteer @ AWWA Elderly Service
Research Assistant @ TTSH-CDC
fav
1)Travel around Singapore for Yummy food :p
2)Doreamon
3) Discover nature
4) Travel round the world
5) Watch Hong Kong drama
6) Help the less fortunate
desires
Healthy Body and Mind
Good people network
Obtain my master degree
FIAT 500
Promising future
Meet that special guy
Mini Schnauzer (grey) Driving Lisence
Well... everyone makes mistakes... including me... most importantly we must learn from our mistakes... and i learnt it the hard way.... Posting this so to remind myself not to repeat these mistakes again.....
Lesson 1:
Colleague K:"when 2 smart ppl come together, they become stupid"
Totally agreed.... i am one who tends to think too much or i infer too much about what ppl say... till the extend i misunderstand their intended msg.... and i missed the main focus of the conversation....
My Jap boss as been consulting me regarding the employment of his new staff using his new grant... i understand that he is urgently looking for ppl to start work asap. Currently, he depends heavily on me to get some of his research done.. but ultimately i'm still a under another doc boss, whenever i work for my jap boss, i am actually volunteering my service... but i'm willing to do... cos with every experiment, my jap boss is giving me a chance to learn and experience.....
but recently, one of my project collaborators from IBN gave me an job offer that will secure my career for another 3 yrs with a promising career ladder...In this economic crisis, who would want jon security.. furthermore, this IBN job is actually wat i wanted as my first job last dec...bcos it deals with wat i study.. Bioengineering.... but last dec, the grant wasnt available yet... and the HIV project already has a grant ready to employ me so i didnt wait for IBN.... my current TTSH contract will onli last till the end of this yr... My first response when Juergen told me abt the IBN job offer was :"can u hold this offer till Dec??" I dun want to "betray" my doc and jap boss if i terminate my current contract.... but every time i meet Juergen, he kept asking if i have submitted my CV...even in front of my boss... he even email me the detailed job description that he sent to IBN HR for job advertisement... alot more details than wat the actual ads was shown to the public....
A moment of selfishness, i submitted my CV to IBN........ not long after, My jap and doc boss found out... both were not happy by my move.... I felt super guilty that day.... I nv mean to hurt them, especially my jap boss who gave me so many opportunities and also taught me sooo much.... On that day i felt so sorry that i nearly cried when i saw my jap boss so angry... or i should say disappointed ..... I'm really sorry....
After talking to my mum and friends, i feel that i should at least have a proper talk with my bosses esp my jap boss abt my submission of CV to another company when i am onli in my 2nd month of employment... before i could say anything the following day, my jap boss was super nice to me... after work, my boss treated the team for a drink... and during the drinking session... he shared a story with us... abt his favorite employee who was his first female lab assistant when he first came to spore 15 yrs ago... how she seemed to know what boss is thinking... how great their chemistry were in terms of working relationship, knowing which reagent my boss needed next... just like a "worm in his tummy". Then he made a statement that just touched me deep through and also sent a great sea of guilt in me... He said: "Sue Yuen, take this as a compliment, U are just like her... u know me too well...." OMG.... I'm so touched to hear that and immediately i felt tat why am i leaving for someone who treasures me soo much..... immediately i wanted to tell him that: "i rather jump over to ur flagship research grant if u are willing to take me on... and most important, I'm sorry if i disappoint u with my selfish act..." as wat u always say, "smart monkey will also drop down from the tree... and i just had a great fall... and i learnt my mistake....."
I should not have being tempted by ppl so easily without considering how fortunate i am rite now.... u are the one who offered me my first job, U keep a lookout for me all the time during my job hunt last yr... Furthermore, our definition of WORK is almost similar: Work is to make ppl happy; to help ppl; salary is to compensate ur effort....
Recently, pplard me has been in and out of relationship issues... either wooing.. being woo... or broke up.. rejected...
Did you know that when you’re in love, dopamine gives you the same feeling as when you would use cocaine? Every time you see your love, you get a shot of dopamine and it’s addictive. Everyone who has been in love knows they wanted to see the one they were in love with again and again and again....
and many time it can be this hormone, dopamine that blinds u from seeing the truth of who your love is... u may blindly ignore some of his/her bad habits or character that u cant even accept... U think that such issues maybe minor.. but not until a third party starts to analysis the situation to u... bcos most of the time , ppl who are involve dont see the big picture.... but if during each meet up u seems to spot one bad habit that u find it unacceptable... or worse u find that communication becomes an issue...... well, will it be better to end it before it hurts too much??
So much of an emo-ish post (hard to see in my blog which is my happy memories vessel.... hope that i will learn these 2 lessons well, by keeping it as a blog post.....
