This is My Life......

dun know why.. but.. on a raining sunday afternoon.. i decided to flip through the stack of photo albums in my shelf... photos preserved all the memories of our... some we remembered.. while others we forgot... There were these few particular pics that spoke a thousand words... my childhood memories and my relationship with my younger brother...

Those were the days when i was the first internal grandchild in my paternal family... i was pampered and loved by everyone.. my parents, my grandmothers, my uncles and aunties... and that could probably inculcate some of my "always-daddy's-little-girl" attitudes....

I was told by uncles and aunties that since young i was a girl who wasnt afraid of anything... i greet stangers.. uncle.. aunties... i was always smiling and knew how to make the adults laughs with my cutie pie expressions... haha... well.. evidence were very well captured in the photos below...

After awhile my little baby brother came along into the family... i didnt see him as an intruder.. but i welcomed him like a precious gem... ever since i remembered... my parents have been telling me this: "no matter wat happen, your brother is the closest person u have in ur life..." and i have been living with this through my life.... he is my best friend in my life forever... that's y when my friends see me with my brother, they thought that we looked like a "couple" more than siblings.. cos we are so close... haha.. well.. that's the way that i was brought up...

as i grew up.. somehow i want to go back to my childhood days where people love me for who i am... innocent.. free from stress and problems.. as we grow up.. more and more responsibilities we need to carry... and sometimes it is this responsibility and expectations that bring me down.. but the resilience that i have in me will keep me going.... and once in awhile it is nice to ponder and remember the carefree and innocent life that i once led in the very beginning of my life....

Photos of my childhood days:

yueN signing off.... rain rain go away....

YueN at 1:16 AM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

2 Nice songs that have been accompanying my drive home these 2 weeks from work... meaningful lyrics for sure... sometimes, when things dont go as u plan... we learn to let go and look forward...

當妳失去了一些東西，過了一段時間，回想起仍有所感慨, 不过也不会后悔所曾经拥有的快乐的一切。。。。

<<失落沙洲>> 徐佳瑩

又来到这个港口没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑驳的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我

我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

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<<一有爱就走吧>>许茹芸

还想多陪你几秒缘分偏那么碰巧

安排了人潮扯散了你我的拥抱

后来我有比较好泪水有微微减少

想让你知道又怕将你打扰

一有爱就走吧是时候放手了

幸福非要在这分岔就别再等他

一有爱就走吧我不会有怪你的想法

你听见吗我最痛的实话

听人说爱忘不了是因为有个缺角

遗憾走不到免不了还想绕一绕

遇过的就你最好但也不足以确保

两人会依靠或是分开变老

一有爱就走吧是时候放手了

幸福非要在这分岔就别再等他

一有爱就走吧我不会有怪你的想法

你听见吗我最痛的实话

一有爱就走吧好好过是对的做法

祝福并不伟大只是这样我才不会牵挂

一有爱就走吧是时候放手了

幸福非要在这分岔就别再等他

一有爱就走吧我不会有怪你的想法

你听见吗我最痛的实话

你听见吗

yueN signing off... lazy afternoon...

YueN at 1:32 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Met up with my ex colleagues from TRF on friday nite...

Updated them about my Africa trip... real HTHT session with them... told them all the interesting things that happened there... well... i just dun know why i am so comfortable with huiyi and baoyue... we can talk about all sorts of topics... even to the every details of our personal life.... hahha... maybe it is the chemistry and the fact that we are honest and frank towards each other... we give each other support and concern that i really appreciate.

when we 3 come together, we always have the best of time!! Last night was 2 hrs dinner at tampines then i drove to pasir ris park to continue our HTHT then to huiyi's void deck to continue part 3... haha... cant believe we have such endless topics....

so looking forward to meet up with huiyi and baoyue again... hopefully in September... next time round we shall go to race course road for even yummier food!!! even without good food we are still the greatest company!!

WoohoOO~~

Yuen signing off... starry starry nitez

YueN at 6:52 AM