After spending nearly 2.5 months on my dengue project, my boss decided that he wants to give up on it. Y??? for a bloodly reason that he had reach a bottleneck and cant think of any other idea to solve the problem that we faced rite now...... it's like rubbing salt on my wound when he said that i was the one who wasted his time... and waste taxpayers' money.... how much taxpayers' money did i waste with my peanut pay of $600 a month.... whereas u take home a 5 digit pay a month.... The worse thing is that he claimed that i keep too quiet for the whole time... and wait for him to lead me...... wth... I'm only a bioengineering student...... not a science student..... and what position to i have to lead him.... Not that i kept quiet the whole time... For a couple of time, i did make some suggestion to him... but he simply ignore them..... or he will use my suggestion and make it sound like he was the one who thought of it...... **&@^$#

Then yesterday, before i went home, he said that i should go home and think of how i should troubleshoot the dengue problem.... ok.. i said i'll go back and think of something..... then the next thing he said was:" go temple and pray real hard then maybe u can come out with an idea"..... my mind nearly explode.. i just walk off after his comment.... wtf.... did he think that i'm so bloody stupid that i cant think of something on my own and i need the power of god to do so.... gth... *#^&#%))@#${& Along the way back, i talked to my colleague, BY abt it.... I was really depressed by the whole issue....... i felt really demoralise after the whole day at work..... Being an attachment student means u have to be a cheap labor.... work long hours but low pay... this isnt enough... i still need to be the one responsible for all the mistakes that happened in the lab.... The morale level of the lab was in the deepest valley...... Everyone except the Boss's bootsucker,V was feeling super sian.... how I wish all of us were to leave Boss and let him and his boot sucker die together......

I went home and i looked through my log book for all the possible ways that i can improve on the situation... I was determined to find something useful to shut up boss's mouth the next day..... i will never let others look down on me no matter wat happened... After spending nearly 5 hrs, i finally came out with 3 proposals........

This morning, the first thing i did in the office was to type out my proposal... but...... my 5hr+2hr of effort and brain cells were wasted...... Boss didnt even bother to look at them..... when i propose my ideas to him, he just brush them off like dust on his table...... then i decided to change my tone to a "i-am_god-damn-serious" kind.. then he decided to listen... and i got to speak like turtle in order to send my message across to him..... During the whole discussion, he ignored my suggestion..... ok... fine...... then again.... he said he thought of a good idea... a better spot of the Dengue primer...... and wth.... that was the same thing that i was trying to tell him earlier on......

well... fine.... i'm just trying to release all my frustration here..... feeling slightly better now....

Counting down to 6 June le....... 45 days to go....... cant wait to go.....

yueN signing off...... feeling depressed......